Hello 
I'm Siobhan Curran/Kisa Naumova, and this is my weblog. I tend to write about stuff like crossdressing, Macs, code, cats, wine and Second Life, but in general it's just an ongoing conversation about all sorts of stuff. If you'd like to know a little bit more about what this all is, I recommend starting on this page which has a little bit of info on who I am, and what I'm trying to do — or you could dive into my five years worth of archives if you like.
Otherwise, feel free to close this box and explore...
Sometimes
You know, I have to confess that I was a little narked when I saw the first few 'parodies' of that image I took of myself the other night — the one where I'm naked and monotone.
When I took it, two thoughts were going through my head: (1) That I didn't feel particularly girlie at the time, and (2) that actually I thought I looked rather hot as a guy at that specific moment thankyouverymuch.
Slightly drunk, and with crappy light though, I managed to end up with a series of photographs that needed a lot of work before any of them were half-presentable, and the one that I eventually uploaded wasn't remotely close to how I felt I looked at the time.
I found it hard to look at, because not only not capturing how I looked, it also went no way towards capturing how I felt. And the ones that other people took following it, I felt, missed the original intent of what I was trying to do. And gradually, I started to feel a little like I was the subject of a general piss-take — especially over my spelling of "realy".
That's why I 'privated' it BTW — not because I was having a strop (well, maybe a little one), but because it jarred me. It wasn't necessarily a visual representation of myself that I was happy with.
The thing is though, a few days after the event (and less drunk and morose), I'm looking at the series that's developing and I'm starting to think that not only is it a really interesting set of shots, it's actually a rather wonderfully honest and personally-explorative set of documents about a particular set of people. One that digs beneath the superficiality of much of what transvestism is all about, and peers into the individuals, rather than the clothes.
So I've un-privated my original, and taken a big bite of humble pie and asked April to let me put it in the Pool.
And can I just say, that as self-congratulatory as it may appear to be, my Second Life avatar is fucking hot.
Somafm.com
Oh yeah, just while I'm in a hybrid SiobhanGrahamKisa™ mental state, I just have to share this chilled Internet Radio station with you. I'm currently streaming it throughout the house, and in Second Life. (Click on the "Groove Salad" link for the stream)
Ha! Like that wasn't intentional 
While we're all coming clean — I guess it's time to admit that I've always had a thing for yours and K's second life avatars...
That's OK — I know how you feel. God that's confusing...
OMG Kittens!!!11!!!!!11
I could watch this little guy all night
Well as I stated on flickr, I thought you look great in that pic, yes and ''hot''.
I was a bit taken aback that people copied it like they did, lol if Id done it Id have been hung drawn and quartered by a few.
I think you look great in male or female mode hon so keep doing what you feel at the time. Wish I looked as good.
As for Kisa, well Im dammed if I can get my SL av to look as good .
Forgot to add that kitten is sooo cute, hate to think what state the screens in now 
Thats the beauty of collaborative projects. They way the original intent mutates over a series. My picture was a direct copy of yours, even down to the toning, lighting, shadow positions, grain and sharpness....except it was mirror image. But others have done different things and thats all good. Thats what Flickr can be about, right?
And sure there was a little poking fun at the spelling, (sorry about that), but that also became the mandate (at least for me it did) — the photos where about the real person and also that the person behind the clothes wants to be real. So much of being a tranny is in hiding behind architecture and textile...I'm tired of hiding...I want to be real.
Which I suppose raises the question...can you be a tranny and be real? The answer is of course, most definately, yes.
However, all that just reflects the mood I was in at the time I shot my version. Those are just my thoughts...my perception...
This isnt the first time I've taken someones idea and run with it. Problem is, when I do run with an idea, I tend to sprint for miles...
I'm glad you've un-privated that photo...I do really like it.
Yes — when your version (the original version) disappeared, I was a bit worried. I'm glad to see it back.
The version I did, albeit a little painful on the left nipple, is one of my favorite photos of my own work (if I may say so). It just screamed things that I've wanted to express for ages. I do feel weird being headless amongst all you other brave souls — but it just works... for me anyway.
God that's confusing...
What's that mean?
I need that cat to teach me how to access frontrow.
S, it's a great group project — thanks for (unwittingly and unwillingly) kicking it off. And thanks to April for running with it.
well.. you dont know me or maybe you do... your photos, YOUR photo makes me smile..SOMEtimes I wish I was a man, then I could only sometimes be a woman... April, I feel a photo coming on.....
deborah
I think the "Sometimes" pool is a fantastic idea — quite apart from the directness of many of the images, it's a great way to get "below the surface". It inspired me to take some images of myself in that pose — because today I have some chest hair, some facial hair, haven't yet had a shower, am carrying a few pounds excess around the waist, and don't exactly look at my best. But — I don't care.
Not that I qualify for the pool (after all, I'm not a transvestite) — and not that my photographic skills are a match for any of those (they're not) — it was an intensely liberating experience. I don't need clothes and make-up to tell me I'm a woman. Because the quality of my picture taking is crap, I haven't posted them to my Flickr stream — but, I would, if they were good enough.
Anyway, there you are — a great idea, and respect to you, Siobhan, for finally taking it in good spirit.
Hey Siobhan,
You do look damn hot in your original pic. Really very cool and hot.
Gillian xx
The group project pics are great and so honest, I could see them as a series on a gallery wall somewhere....
Davew
God that's confusing...
What's that mean?
It means that I find it hard enough sometimes, to cope with the sense of self-fancying when it's just me wearing a dress. To then amplify that by inflicting narcicistic tendancies onto a virtual representation of a self that doesn't even exist does my head in sometimes.
Every once in a while, when I'm rushing around, flying around, and generally flirting in Second Life, my head gets into a space where the re-presentation of me on-screen actually becomes me — in a very similar way to the self-projceted id that looks back at me in the mirror sometimes.
Basically, I fancy me. But it's a self-constructed version of me that I fancy.
I could see them as a series on a gallery wall somewhere
Dave, I'm contemplating taking up the "Photoshop them all into a 'Trainspotting' poster" challenge.
SOMEtimes I wish I was a man, then I could only sometimes be a woman...
Oh, the irony
"I'm contemplating taking up the "Photoshop them all into a 'Trainspotting' poster" challenge."
Actually when I saw the first four I thought 'Usual Suspects poster'
Its a great set of pictures. People have called it a project but I'm not sure thats what it is — a photo meme perhaps. However together these pictures are something quite special.
I'm contemplating taking up the "Photoshop them all into a 'Trainspotting' poster" challenge.
Something like this?
Yes, but with more style and panache, obviously 
Wow love the poster...
Davew
That avatar is SO tranny... big hands