Hello 
I'm Siobhan Curran/Kisa Naumova, and this is my weblog. I tend to write about stuff like crossdressing, Macs, code, cats, wine and Second Life, but in general it's just an ongoing conversation about all sorts of stuff. If you'd like to know a little bit more about what this all is, I recommend starting on this page which has a little bit of info on who I am, and what I'm trying to do — or you could dive into my five years worth of archives if you like.
Otherwise, feel free to close this box and explore...
Transvestite Gang Pesters Magazine Street
"They're all very skinny and very flamboyant" — Such a strange newspaper story, I'm not sure quite how to react to it. (Thanks Tom 
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Just some Guys out to give the communtiy a bad name ???
Oh, The Wit
De-Idiomise
I'm rapidly coming to the conclusion that there are certain aspects of my personality that I don't like — the arrogance, the childishness, the bitchiness. And this morning, I finally stumbled on a common thread between them, and a way to cut them out completely.
Drink.
All of the things that I do that I later go on to regret — or the things that I do that upset people — they're all done when I'm drunk.
So I've decided to stop.
Apart from the odd bit of social drinking — a pint or a glass of wine in a pub with friends — the vast majority of my alcohol intake comes from me sitting in my studio at the end of a day, reading things online and necking the red stuff.
I do it for a couple of reasons I guess — partly because I like the stuff, but mostly because it stops the clatter of my brain from keeping me awake. I think too much about things — I just can't stop going over and over them in my head. And getting drunk is a nice way of shutting myself up.
Except I don't shut up do I? I rabbit on and dig deeper and deeper holes for myself. So I'm stopping drinking — specifically the drinking purely for the sake of getting drunk.
I'll let yous know how I get on.
The irresistible rise of cybersex
I should start charging for sessions with Kisa... — (New Scientist)
congrats on your decision!
I hope the best for you :3
3 cheers for you.. Move on and be happy. The penny drops when threads suddenly interlinkinto one sort of rope which has tied to the end of it a bottle of red.
Wow girl. Congrats on that. Good luck and know that you can call on us if you need some support!
Oi! I blogged that ages ago! 
Oh wait... I just stuck it on my del.icio.us sidebar. 
Good luck with the drink thing babes.
So I've decided to stop
But is the world ready for a rational, clear-headed, sensible Siobhan?
By the way: Didn't you say that Sparkle would be the first time your sister met 'you'? So what did she make of you (or are you saving that for another time)?
Yeah good luck with the cutting down, it was probably never the best way of dealing with insomnia and you'll feel a lot better off if you are not buying so many bottles of wine. I know I felt a lot less skint when I gave up smoking.
Great to hear it I know you can do it, Ive been there with the drinking and drugs,and it's not easy. Use all your supports because it helps, and dont keep stuff bottled up inside, thats one of the worst things.
(((((Siobhan)))))
Chocolate > wine.
Best of luck babes...
"All of the things that I do that I later go on to regret — or the things that I do that upset people — they're all done when I'm drunk."
How I recognise myself in that. I write what I think are witty or "edgy" responses to people in the hope of impressing people, at midnight when every five seconds I'm grimacing at the screen in order to see it, then wake up and my looking at my clever-dick responses makes me sound like a total idiot. And then, for the next few days, I'm praying that people will see me for "who I really am" — i.e. really nice, and generous.
Having said that, there is a community of drinkers who recognise those failings. I mean, who wants to be controlled all the time? If people are your mates, they give you a bit of rope. But then again, that could make for quite superficial relationahips.
Anyway, I've had a bottle of quite good rose so am probably not in the best position to say anything sensible
So...any time this week for a drink — in the immortal words of John Inman, "I'm free" Except Friday.
I have reached a point in my life where I am absolutely fed up with being drunk, not just all the time, but at all. I'm drunk now and I wish I wasn't (as good as the night out was) and I sure wish in the morning I wasn't going to wake up feeling like shit.
I'm working on it but it's hard work. I wish you well Siobhan.
Cool — glad to hear it — fancy a sociable pint sometime soon
(I too decided that even my more modest drinking of an evening had to stop being a habit recently — it's become much more enjoyable and I can afford to drink much better bottles of red when I do).
Now all you need to do is eat properly (and get as fat as the rest of us)
JoH
JoH
May I recommend the Uber cheap but just as treat alternatives from Tesco. My personal favourite is sparkling Elderflower drink, at 89p per bottle. It's what I have when my friends have wine.
""I should start charging for sessions with kisa""
Hmmmmmmm theres a thought I seriously need some money in there lol
Unrelated note — You may be interested in this (if you haven't already heard about it:http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio4/science/allinthemind.shtml?focuswin
Didn't catch the show myself (just heard the trailer), but there's a segment about Synaesthesia and it's available via aunty Beebs wonderful 'listen again' Internet service.
Has anyone noticed how quiet this blog has been since she stopped drinking? It's over 24 hours since her last post! alcohol=blogging?
Good luck
What if I'm actually busy eh? You know, sometimes I do actually have to do stuff.
I was going to make a Father Jack reference here but thought the better of it. Good luck with the sobriety, but if you start dressing up like one of the women from The Crucible I think that's probably taking it too far.
Just one more reason to admire you. Congratulations on your decision Siobhan.
Sounds like a bunch of dorks dressed in drag and pretending to be Trannys to me.
Good disguise, not noticeable at all LOL.
You look stunning in that red dress BTW