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I'm Siobhan Curran/Kisa Naumova, and this is my weblog. I tend to write about stuff like crossdressing, Macs, code, cats, wine and Second Life, but in general it's just an ongoing conversation about all sorts of stuff. If you'd like to know a little bit more about what this all is, I recommend starting on this page which has a little bit of info on who I am, and what I'm trying to do — or you could dive into my five years worth of archives if you like.

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Monday, 31st July, 2006

Neat Image (Photoshop Filter)

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"A filter designed to reduce visible noise and grain in photographic images produced by digital cameras" — Not tried it myself yet, but it seems to get good reactions. There's a PC version too, but I'll be buggered if I'm linking to that

Im not sure how often I would use it. Personally I would like to see it tidy up some high end (if there is such a thing) camera phone shots.

Well here, let me do a quick test just using the 'Auto' functions to see how it goes, using a portion of a classic Curran snapshot...

Before:

Currantly Before Neat Image

After:

Currantly After Neat Image

That's actually not bad, considering I just used the defaults, and all I did afterwards was apply a quick Unsharp Mask to the output. There's a whole bunch of profiles that people have shared to work with specific cameras and phones, so I'll have a bit more of a delve into it later — if I get the chance.

Sounds similar to the excellent (but more pricey) Noise Ninja, which I've been using for a while now.

(I posted about it back in 2004, proving once and for all that Siobhan is TEH queen of Sloppy Seconds)

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Pah. My DIY noise-reduction and overall Photoshop enhancement tutorial trumps you by 11 months :tongue:

Flickr: white poo

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Answering one of the greatest mysteries of our time

Perhaps Not

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Perhaps Not

I was about to go out. Then the heavens opened

Neat Noise reduction works well on RAW images — cool stuff.

BTW, link to your 2004 'noise reduction and overall PS enhancement tutorial' doesnt load with images, which is a shame as it 'reads' really interesting :wink:

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Cay

I know :unsure: Almost all of the images posted before the Great Server Crash Of 2005 are missing — probably never to return again. This is why I rewrote that tutorial in June last year

and I always thought that heaven was open 24/7...

Seriously, I wish it would smeggin' rain here!

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Emily Grae

Yay! I shall go to the Ball :wink: Thanks, thats my afternoon sorted out...

Erm, sorry, screwed up that last post... pls feel free to delete/tidy it up.

If i want to link my name to my filckr site i guess i post my flickr URL in the URL: box?

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Cay

No, stick your alias (resourcefulrobin) in the Flickr box. You don't need the url to your photos.

I'm A Font Trapped In A Typeface's Body

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I'm A Font Trapped In A Typeface's Body

"I was about to go out. Then the heavens opened"

I did go out... Just a quick walk across the park to the Post Office... Then the heavens opened!!! :-o

Technovia: Sorry — which century am I in?

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My lovely friend Ian favicon has been on great form recently, and this is no exception

Influxes And Tipping Points

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I'm not entirely sure exactly what I'm trying to say here, but it's something that's generally occupying my head (in a fuzzy way) at the moment — the whole mass democratisation aspect of the 'new web' (as it were). My general concern, at this exact moment in time, is that I'm going to come across as some kind of 'snob' — but fuck it...

I have, for a while now, been hugely excited by the way in which the emphasis of major web-based tools has been on ease of use — how things like Flickr and del.icio.us and suchlike empower people to get stuff done online, rather than worrying about all sorts of technical voodoo. It's something that I've found within things that I've built as well — you make it easy, and great content starts to flow.

The problem is though, that you get an awful lot of shit as well — and the big question that rings in my mind is how to deal with that? How do you filter out the crap? Who (if anyone) curates the vastness of uploads?

From my position (as someone within the trannie-community), I've been spotting a small trend recently — partly related to my Sloppy Seconds thing (I guess). Initially, you get a group of developers, early adopters, and masochistic beta-testers playing with something. Then come the 'Seconds' (as it were), who take to this New Toy™ and flood it with rich content, create niches, and forge new paths and networks. After that, the Jennie-come-latelies (like me) get there, and embrace the ethos and gladly contribute.

Then, within already-established communities and sections of the web, word spreads, and the influx happens.

Now here's my dilemma ... the influx is needed, because things need to grow — but it's usually around that time that the general overall quality of content starts to diminish — and people start to have to develop ways of limiting and moderating the freedoms that made the tool so wonderful in the first place.

Is this a valid concern? Am I being elitist here? :unsure:

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*taps fingers*

*rolls cigarette*

*decides "what the hell"*

Basically, I've seen some really shite tranny pictures recently — in places where I never really expected to see shite pictures.

I know that I'm not always the most self-editing of people — and I'm as guilty as the next trannie of making inadvisable decisions about whether I "look good enough to post" sometimes.

But dear God, the influx of badly-lit, badly-composed, and downright scarey pictures that have been appearing in pools recently leave me thumping my head against the keyboard screaming "FFS" loud enough to worry my neighbours.

I really don't get it. I don't get how someone could look at some of them and hit the upload button.

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I suppose what I'm wondering here, is how much of a support group certain things should be? Part of me really wishes I had the self-confidence and courage to leave some honest comments on some of the pictures I've seen recently — but I haven't.

But perhaps there is a tendancy, sometimes, within our community to confuse "support" and "encouragement" with generically flattering every single photograph and enfemme adventure that we see/read about — giving a 10-out-of-ten for effort and ignoring everything else. I think there's a very fine line between actually being supportive, and just sycophantically rattling off the usual "u look great!" bollocks that you see everywhere.

I wonder, sometimes, whether it would be a lot more suportive to say "Hey, well done for going out/posting a photo ... but you look like shit".

I find it jarring when a online outlets I'm used to coming at "unmediated" suddenly needs to be mediated.

With forums, it tends to be a slow process. You start off loving them, pouring over ever post. Then one day you realise that 90% of it is stuff you've read before and/or don't give a fuck about. So you move on.

With blogs, you pretty soon learn not to bookmark every blog, and to get hold of an aggregator to mediate the experience. But blogs are kind of designed to be mediated.

With flickr, overnight it seems to have gone from a place that I didn't really bother to mediate, to a place that's over-run with irrelevancy. It's still a fantastic resource, I see astounding pictures every day (tranny and non tranny) but I wish I could find better ways of cutting through the crap!

This comment hasn't really made the point I'd wanted to.

It's going to feel right at home on tranniefesto then. :biggrin: (Ain't I a stinker?) :smile:

Eeek , I don’t know why you think this confined to trannies. It’s in way too many communities. From telling a butch the new mullet suits her, to say to a straight friend that she has got a really catch in the new boyfriend – when everyone thinks he is a twat. I’m not even going to start about the BDSM lot (no you are not Lord Vengeance, you are a 45 year old accountant called Colin).

People don’t seem to like the truth or even a fair appraisal. Yet frankly it wouldn’t go amiss for some people.

But have you noticed that people who are more critical over there own look tend to be better looking than those who think they look stunning. Oooo, I think there’s a research proposal in there somewhere.

no you are not Lord Vengeance, you are a 45 year old accountant called Colin

You'll forgive me here, while I piss myself laughing :lol:

Ain't I a stinker?

Yes Becky :tongue: Yes you are :wink:

a place that's over-run with irrelevancy [...] I wish I could find better ways of cutting through the crap!

What I'm wondering, is that with The Influx™, comes a general need for a community to become more self-critical. I think that it's almost inevitable that in the early days of something, people with similar ideas and mindsets gather together on similar wavelengths — and that in those situations there's no real need to aggressively 'police' content.

But with a wider appeal, and (natch) a wider mindset, to keep something roughly heading on its original course, voices have to be raised.

Eeek , I don’t know why you think this confined to trannies. It’s in way too many communities.

Ooh Ciara, I know — I don't think it's confined to us at all, it's just the one I've got most experience wth :wink:

My general pondering though, is whether or not it's right for me to give someone criticism.

See, on the one hand, I kinda think it's a bit mean of me if I did. Blowing my own trumpet for a second (fnnar fnnar), I'm very well aware of the fact that compared to some people, I am quite lucky in the way that I look. I know I'm not passable (but then, who is? :wink:), but from certain angles a certain angle, I don't look too bad at all.

Is it right though, for me to say to someone "You don't look like a woman in that photograph" when it's perhaps something they really can't help? Should we be putting emphasis on surface-beauty and superficial indicators of 'attractiveness', or concentrating on people's personalities.

But then again, whacking a photo up on Flickr and describing it with words like "I love looking like a woman" — well, perhaps that act in itself opens it up for criticism.

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Well there is the dilemma, to say what is on your mind, to say what you see, how you see it — or to shut up and let it carry on. I know my mouth has got me in trouble in the past. I think the really difference is how it is done. Some gentle hints and tips, as apposed to a full on attack. But then again even the gentle option is not always welcome.

I guess that the really question is, do these people really what any help. After all you can only help those that want the help. I know here in Brighton there are so many who I want to say too them, I’ll take you to Tony and Guy, then the M.A.C shop and then some decent clothe shops but it would be point less.

I know some can’t help what they have been given but they can work with what you have, and that’s the nub.

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Ciara

Just for the record, if I bother to post that someone or something looks great, I mean it. If I think otherwise, I'll either a) shut up if I don't know them very well or b) tease my point or c) quietly and privately point out that they look like a twat.

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The real issue is that Wikipedia is a not-so-small community of people, facing the same challenges of governance, accountability, and policing that any community this size would face. I can't help but think that most of these issues arise because Wikipedia essentially runs with the equivalent of a Declaration of Independence but no Constitution.

(http://www.dashes.com/anil/2006/07/31/antipedia)

And perhaps we're seeing the first signs of the war over here in the west too? The now traditional transgendered contestant in Big Brother, besieged, in the foxhole of the diary room, or sleeper agents being groomed to hide in the other camp in other reality shows. Webloggers drawing up their strategies for the coming conflict in the open briefing rooms of the Internet. Shots fired across the bows of discussion forums and tactics rehearsed in Metaversal simulations like Second Life?

(http://www.thedragnet.org/blog/musings/armistice.html)

When I get drunk — which is what I am, at the moment, unfortunately, against what I promised myself I would do — I sometimes get a little beligerent. I like to imagine that I hold more sway than I perhaps do, and envisage all sorts of phenomenal outcomes stretching far off into the future.

It might be the drink, or it might be just a general series of events of late that are fueling an aggressive streak of activism in my head. Either way, I'm pissed off with things.

There is a very good reason why this blog's title is a pun on the word manifesto...

Is it right though, for me to say to someone "You don't look like a woman in that photograph" when it's perhaps something they really can't help? Should we be putting emphasis on surface-beauty and superficial indicators of 'attractiveness', or concentrating on people's personalities

Hmmm... is "looking like a woman" the sole aim of every tranny? Is it yours?

Different people have different motives in what they do — including posting a picture in public.

Part of me really wishes I had the self-confidence and courage to leave some honest comments on some of the pictures I've seen

I have just put such a system in place.... :blush: I have yet to pluck up the courage to use it....

and for some girls — just how many photos of their arse do they think we really need to see???

Two observed rules:

1) People who are not good at something are generally not aware of exactly how little they know/how bad they are (this has been shown in some recent research I ought to be able to link to). Thus, some deluded soul browses a couple of web sites and thinks they can be web designers, watches a couple of Grand Designs and thinks they can be an architect, does some karaoke and believes they will be the next Kylie or buys a cheap skirt at Top Shop and is convinced that they're a supermodel.

2) Forums and other online communities have no long term memory. After about three or four months, most fora (forii, forumses?) repeat the same old conversations, ask the same questions and still don't know the answers. That's fine in itself as a lot of communities still allow their members to build useful relationships. However, it means that online communities cannot learn. With steady turnover and members coming and going, most are stuck at the lowest common denominator. With reference to rule one, that means that most online communities are thick and don't know it.

Looking at trannies, we have suddenly networked thousands of people who previously would have been sitting at home thinking they were the only ones that did this weird stuff. Even though we're all talking about things that previously were locked away in isolated pockets, the state of the art in dressing up really hasn't got very far in the last few years.

Worse still, there's absolutely no self-awareness. New tranny blogs still show girls making the same wobbly first steps, making the same mistakes (and often disappearing never to be seen again after a couple of months).

How do you act as a collective memory for a community? It's not so simple when your experience makes you a completely different person to those that are taking those first faltering steps in badly fitting shoes.

Criticism is fine, but it should be constructive — if you can act as a teacher rather than just a critic then hopefully girls can make the most of what they have even if they aren't stunning. Let's face it, if they are stunning, we don't want to help them. Bitches.

is "looking like a woman" the sole aim of every tranny?

No Koan, it's not — but I would have thought it's pretty high up there.

I get what you're saying, but I do think that throwing yourself oneself into a stream of photographs whose context is all about 'looking like a woman', then describing yourself oneself as "looking like a woman", pretty much opens up debate about whether you one look like a woman or not.

(She said, realising that using the word "you" there so much makes it look like I mean you — which I don't :unsure: — so goes back to edit that slightly)

After about three or four months, most fora (forii, forumses?) repeat the same old conversations

Which is all well and good.. But just what are your favourite songs about trannys..... ?

I rather like that Shania Twain's Man I Feel Like A Woman...

How do you act as a collective memory for a community?

Wow. Claudia, this and the rest of your comment made me gasp. I'm on the verge of a conceptual breakthrough...

I'm on the verge of a conceptual breakthrough...

I, for one, would like to hear more about this.

I was really forming the question that Koan has so intelligently asked already. Does everyone have the same motives for posting pictures? Even more important, not everyone self-moderates as much as you do. Some people are fine posting pictures where they are just trying.

I know you've seen my shots on Flickr (such that they are). I'm TS and that makes a difference, but I know I don't look like a woman right now. I'm happy (in the interum) being "that guy that dresses like a chick, but looks good doing it". I feel that I don't look bad, even if everyone knows I'm not a woman. And so I don't feel so uptight about posting imperfect or "masculine" photos of myself. That might just be because I know I'll be more feminine in the future.

As shite as some of these pictures you're discussing are, do we (meaning anyone) have the right to tell them that just because they look like crap and refuse help to look better they don't have the right to post? The trans community is large and not everyone views being a tranny in the same way. To some the act of dressing is much more important than the actual outcome.

I'd just say that there are different reasons and approaches that my impact the quality of what is contained within the photos and so that makes them hard to moderate and hard to "fix".....if that's your goal.

I guess I felt it was a little ironic, Siobhan, that in some posts you criticise trannys for trying to look like women ("be a bloke in a dress, and be proud of it"), and then in this one, berate them for not looking like a woman, but thinking that they do. I guess I'm trying to determine what the difference is between those positions.

I probably don't frequent the same photostreams as the ones you have in mind — apart from ["Sometimes..."][http://flickr.com/groups/73541754@N00/], and that's hardly a poster series for "looking like a woman :wink: — so, sure, I'm probably missing that context. I know this, though — when I need to learn aspects of womanhood, I look to women to learn them, not to others who are either trying to learn those aspects, or who think they've learned them, when arguably they haven't.

And that is, I think, my main concern with essentially closed communities — like tranny-specific fora. What's reinforced in such a forum is "how to be a tranny", rather than "how to be a woman", IMHO. Sure, there are techniques a tranny might want or need to learn, that they probably can't learn by example from women, e.g. tucking. But if someone's point of reference is steroetypical tranny shots ("tranny on bed", "tranny on stairs", "tranny ass shot", etc.) is it any wonder if that's what proliferates?

I don't post many pictures of myself, taken by myself, because I'm a crap photographer, and I know it. And I've posted some videos of me that are distinctly unflattering — especially the ones about facial electrolysis. Does that make me a bad woman? If the choice is between spending my time and energy looking like a woman, or in enjoying my life as a woman, the latter wins. Of course, it's great when they coincide...! :wink:

I guess I'm advocating a little tolerance towards those with different technical and aesthetic standards, is all — especially if their main point of reference is other people of dubious technical and aesthetic standards. Unless the aim is to be elitist and exclusionary, of course — in which case, go for it!

Ugh, too early in the morning for me to get Markdown inline syntax right...

For clarity — when I wrote:

I look to women to learn them

I meant, of course, "I look to women to learn them from" — and when I wrote:

What's reinforced in such a forum is "how to be a tranny", rather than "how to be a woman", IMHO

I meant, "What's reinforced in such a forum is "how to be a tranny", rather than "how to look like a woman", IMHO".

Don't comment when sleepy, Koan. Clarity suffers.

Don't comment when sleepy, Koan. Clarity suffers.

Equally, don't write when pissed, Siobhan :wink:

I guess I felt it was a little ironic, Siobhan, that in some posts you criticise trannys for trying to look like women ("be a bloke in a dress, and be proud of it"), and then in this one, berate them for not looking like a woman, but thinking that they do. I guess I'm trying to determine what the difference is between those positions.

That's a very fair point Koan, and I am wondering about the consistency of what I'm trying to say in relation to things I've said in the past. But I think the core of it is in the words "thinking that they do".

What riles me, I suppose, is is the self-perpetuating stagnation of mutual back-patting that seems to go on in places — the "looking great hun!" responses to a photograph that looks a million miles away from "great", that encourages more of the same rather than suggesting a positive direction in which to take things.

But if someone's point of reference is steroetypical tranny shots ("tranny on bed", "tranny on stairs", "tranny ass shot", etc.) is it any wonder if that's what proliferates?

Exactly :smile: But I think that's part of the general point I'm trying to make. When you have a pool that's essentially just the same photograph (but from slightly different angles, and with different people), then that stagnancy increases. What I want to see are things that (urgh) "Push the envelope" as it were, and I think the way to do that is to (a) post pictures that are challenging, and (b) make constructively critical and honest comments.

(In other words, please ignore my "look like shit" thing above, and put it down to me being slightly emotive and a bit drunk. What I'm getting at is something more along the lines of "hey, have you tried taking from a different angle/using different lighting/messing around with photo-software?")

Just as an aside for a moment, there are several discussions that centre around these "tranny on bed"/"tranny on stairs" idea. I'd like to think that the intent behind them is partly to self-mock — to highlight the 'sameness' of photographs by saying "Heh, look. We've all done this — aren't we crap?". But instead it becomes exactly that "how to be a tranny" thing you're talking about — it becomes more rungs on the Trannie Ladder™.

I guess I'm advocating a little tolerance towards those with different technical and aesthetic standards, is all — especially if their main point of reference is other people of dubious technical and aesthetic standards.

I don't know though :unsure: "Tolerance" yes, but that doesn't mean sycophance does it? What Charlee said above — "If I think otherwise, I'll either a) shut up if I don't know them very well or b) tease my point or c) quietly and privately point out that they look like a twat." — rings very true to me, and it's what I generally do. But I think that now the 'tipping point' has been reached within certain spaces, then a certain increase in response has to reflect that.

As shite as some of these pictures you're discussing are, do we (meaning anyone) have the right to tell them that just because they look like crap and refuse help to look better they don't have the right to post?

I think, Natalie, that that's exactly what I was troubling myself about earlier — that conflict between (as Koan points out) my desire for "pride in ourselves" vs "not looking like shit". Perhaps the emphasis here though is being put too much on "looking like a woman" (God, I'm contradicting myself again :rolleyes:) While I do think that that is a major driving factor behind the motivation for what we do, I think the emphasis should be on looking good.

"Good" is, of course, an entirely subjective thing — but what I'd like to see isn't a black-and-white scenario where photos are judged either as "good" or "bad". I want to see debate, differing opinions, argument — and hopefully some kind of progression in the ways that we express ourselves.

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Actually, maybe that's my One And Only Point™ — that a massive influx of newness should bring about forward change, rather than just regurgitating everything that's gone before, over and over again. And the only way to do that is to be more honest, more open, and more constructive in the ways that we respond to the things that we see flooding into our aggregators every morning.

Maybe.

I think the emphasis should be on looking good.

Why?

Because it was the word that popped into my head, and I can't quite get across what I mean.

What should the emphasis be on then?

How about on feeling good? If someone gets a positive, validatory feeling from posting a picture, isn't that a worthwhile outcome for them, even if the quality (however one defines that) isn't great, in the eyes of others?

How about on feeling good?

Yup. I go along with that Koan.

S, I have more to add (in particular about why "constructive criticism" can do damage in the "faux" social spaces of the Internet) but I'm trying to work, damnit! Stop having such interesting conversations on your blog.

Ok, I’ll agree that there is nothing wrong with doing stuff to make your self feel good, I personally am currently dressed as Hong Kong Phoeey and sitting in a vat of custard (and surprisingly there isn’t a Flickr group for it, go figure).

But I really don’t feel that asking people to falsely validate a person’s view of themselves is doing any good. There is no harm in feedback, as long as it is constructive. If we didn’t get feed back I’d still be wearing a particular M.A.C eye shadow that I was convinced suited me, yet in fact made me look like I’d got two nasty black eyes.

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Ciara

Stop having such interesting conversations on your blog.

:tongue:

It's not me — it's other people leaving interesting comments :smile:

If someone gets a positive, validatory feeling from posting a picture, isn't that a worthwhile outcome for them, even if the quality (however one defines that) isn't great, in the eyes of others?

You know, I really want to disagree with this — but I'm finding it really hard to find a leg to stand on.

You know, I really want to disagree with this — but I'm finding it really hard to find a leg to stand on

:wink:

But I really don’t feel that asking people to falsely validate a person’s view of themselves is doing any good

And I certainly wouldn't say "you look fabulous" if I didn't mean it. Praise and encouragement where it's due — silent indifference when it isn't — that's what works for me, when it comes to matters of someone's self-image.

Even praise and encouragement when it's due is not without its hazards — but that's another subject entirely.

"I certainly wouldn't say "you look fabulous" if I didn't mean it. Praise and encouragement where it's due — silent indifference when it isn't — that's what works for me"

But unfortunately so many don't hold by this very sensible approach.

Not everyone is graced by stunning good looks and fantastic figure some of us are homelier than others. However we can all look good with the right make-up, clothes that suit and flatter, hairstyles that do the same and knowing which angles flatter and which ones to avoid.

Those skills can be learnt through practise and good advice.

Not everyone can practise that much and I know for a lot of t*girls the advice can only be got with difficulty. But as an outsider who has looked at many a tranny picture stream I don't believe that any trans person who looked to comments on flickr to let them whether they had got a good look or not would get the advice or support they wanted.

I've seen too many pictures where the subject looks like their make up and clothing has been done by Coco the Clown rather than Coco Chanel being graced with loads of comments along the lines of "looking great hon" "so feminine and natural" when quite frankly they look a state and anything but natural.

How could anyone get an idea of what suits them when on they whole their peers give such indiscrimant praise. To be honest I've wondered whether some commenters use the phrase "feminine and natural" as code for something else more sticky and damp.

I've seen very pretty Tgirls look more like scarecrows because of ill advised make up and outfits and plain tgirls look absolutely stunning because they have choosen hairstyles makeup and clothing that suits them and brings out their best.

Mind you this just doesn't effect trannies look at the business Trinny and Susannah get, plenty of women are clueless as well. The big difference though is when I look a state in a picture on my flickr stream I don't get comments from my peers telling me I look like the bees knees.

"Should we be putting emphasis on surface-beauty and superficial indicators of 'attractiveness', or concentrating on people's personalities."

Personalities.

Really, I think it's better to say nothing than to fake being impressed. At least find something to like, you know?

Thought I better add my 2p worth from a Novice's perspective. Personally, I've never posted a photo of myself on the net, because I've yet to meet my own quality control standards, and to be honest I'm not too bothered with that as a personal tranny goal.

However, for some, I can understand why it is a huge achievement for them to post a photo of themselves, even if they do look crap. I'm intending to go to my first tx on Saturday — I've been using the "i'm not ready yet" excuse for months, but sometimes you just have to move forward, ready or not (I'll be the one in the crappy cheap red wig btw). So I can understand where these people are coming from.

Constructive criticism is something you have to be very careful with, alot of people who are tv/tg/ts can suffer from low self-esteem / depression, and so telling some home truths can be a bit of a body blow, even if that is uninentional. I agree in that silence is the best policy.

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