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I'm Siobhan Curran/Kisa Naumova, and this is my weblog. I tend to write about stuff like crossdressing, Macs, code, cats, wine and Second Life, but in general it's just an ongoing conversation about all sorts of stuff. If you'd like to know a little bit more about what this all is, I recommend starting on this page which has a little bit of info on who I am, and what I'm trying to do — or you could dive into my five years worth of archives if you like.
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Wednesday, 28th November, 2007
Uncomfortable
(A small rant about my body, and why it pisses me off sometimes)
It was quite late when the two of us went to bed last night. Well, actually, I'd gone to bed earlier, but woken up again (as is my habit) had a fag and some squash, then the two of us curled up under the duvet and started to drift off to sleep.
Two things I should mention, briefly, before I go any further:
Curling up with Amiee is the most wonderful thing in the world. I'm sorry — this is probably more information than I should blog — but when we're lying together with our arms arapped around one another, or even just standing and giving eac hother a hug, it's the most amazing feeling. It sort of feels that that's where I (and she) 'belong'.
She's still here. Our original plan was that she would go back to ths States yesterday, but she's stayed. And I am the most deleriously happy man in the world.
Anyway. Yes. Sorry. Curled up in bed...
You know in films, how the main couple lie together then fall asleep in some kind of 'draped over each other' way? (Always with one of those special 'L-shaped' duvets that manage to cover the woman's breasts, but leave the man's torso showing.) It was kinda like that.
"This is beautiful", I thought to myself, as my brain started to switch off — or rather, switch into its Bizarro Mode™ that it always does just as I'm falling asleep. "I want to lie here like this forever"
But then my arm started to ache. Followed by my leg. Then my foot.
See, as I've blogged about before, there's something wrong with the right-hand side of my body. My doctor suggested it was arthitis, but I'm more inclined to believe that it's some remnant of old injuries that didn't heal properly — arm, leg and foot breakages from over-zealous rugby tackles when I was at school, and the time when I walked five miles on a broken foot because I got kicked off the train on the way to the hospital.
(Note to self: find where I wrote that story and link to it)
It's not a specific pain — one that you could rub for a bit, or whack an entire tube of Neurofen Gel on and feel "Whoo hoo!" about it. It's just this dull ache that creeps in the more I lie (or sit) in one static pose.
I've found, over the years, that the only way I can get comfortable in bed, is to lie on my front with my right arm tucked underneath my torso, my right leg wrapped around my left, and my right foot outside of the duvet, tucked into the crack between the end of the bed and the mattress.
Pressure — that's the key. If I can apply pressure to each of the parts that hurt, then it's less noticable, and I can get to sleep.
Which is all well and good, but it pisses me off because I have to disentangle myself from the most beautiful woman in the world, and adopt a really 'antisocial' poise — turning away from her and contorting myself into a self-contained shape — when all I really want to do is lie on my back with my arms around her, her head on my chest, and drift off into a deep sleep.
Oh, and also, if I lie on my back, I snore like a pig with a cold.
Could be sciatica...
Hmm, but then I wouldn't have it in my arm 
The two things might not necessarily be connected. I've never been able to go to sleep snuggled up to someone — I have to turn over before I can get to sleep.
Glad it's going well and only your age is letting you down
Why don't you have Amiee apply the pressure needed 
Or swap sides? You lie on your right and put left limbs over Aimee...
Yes, see, this is what she said to me this morning when we were talking about it. It should give you some inclination of my common-sense abilities that I had never thought of doing that before
Oh, and also, if I lie on my back, I snore like a pig with a cold.
apparently I do that too. Never noticed it myself 
Really? I've woken myself up doing it a few times it's that bad
Good luck with swapping sides! I can't sleep if I am on the wrong side!!
Why don't you both permanently jack into the world where everything is more or less how you want it except for the lack of curved surfaces, and wait for a patch
See, as I've blogged about before, there's something wrong with the right-hand side of my body. My doctor suggested it was arthitis, but I'm more inclined to believe that it's some remnant of old injuries that didn't heal properly — arm, leg and foot breakages from over-zealous rugby tackles when I was at school, and the time when I walked five miles on a broken foot because I got kicked off the train on the way to the hospital.
Was this, by any chance, during the war? 
Awwwwww, nothing bugs me more than when I'm all snuggled up with love-a-dove and I fall asleep like that, and then he decides it's time to disentangle. Hopefully you figure out how to make it work, 'cause I know it makes ME feel sad when all of a sudden there's no longer a state of snugglings.
Have you tried Alexander technique? I had back pains for years after a car accident, and my doctor talked about arthritis too, but the technique helped me improve my overall posture and has made a fantastic difference
Firstly — Yay! She's still here
Secondly — Poor you. Having back problems myself, I can sympathise with the whole 'not being comfy' thing. And it definately seems worse when there is someone you want to be comfy with